A Walk in the Light

I'm starting this blog because I need to journal more and I just can't seem to. Maybe if I have an actual blog I will. It is more for me than anyone, probably boring drivel to most people.

I have been feeling pretty low lately.  Couldn't sleep last night but had to get up and do the things.  Braided daughter's hair before she went in to her new job at a bakery (chain that sells yummy sweet things).  Fed the chickens.  Wanted to go back to bed.  Made a to do list: Pay bills, budget, plan for trip this weekend, meal plan, grocery shop, homeschool, walk. Bleh.

I wrote out homeschool assignments and changed into walking clothes. Sneaked out of my own house so the basement dog wouldn't catch on I was going on a walk without her. 

Impossible weather -- over 70F in the midwest in February.   The picture above is from a few weeks ago .. there is no snow or ice on the creek now. I stopped to listen to and find a woodpecker.  Breathed in nature.  Asked God what my next step in life should be.  

 Back home I showered and changed into "real clothes". Made a quick meal plan for a few days (tacos, hamburgers, chicken broccoli cheese casserole) and told the homeschoolee (age 15) her assignments were written out and she should get up take a shower and eat.  

Took my list to the grocery store and spent $66 on a few groceries (?!) After getting home, starting some chicken cooking, putting items away, we started reading outdoors.  It got too hot.

 We are reading Gifted Hands by Ben Carson.  It is pretty good, there are parts where we skip a bit, brother (Monty Python, Holy Grail).  Her career prep curriculum suggested it.  He talks frequently about asking for God's help in decisions about his patients and other things in his career.  Have I been doing that?  I am struggling to not give up on my kids that have shunned God.  I am the best one to reach them right now but I have no idea how.  

 My precious teen cried during pre-algebra.  It is getting a bit tricky, or at least it is all brand new to her -- slopes and y intercepts etc.   She had cancer when she was 3 and one long term effect is delayed processing.  It takes her longer to remember things like math facts than most people.  This completely frustrates her.  

 Husband is out at sports practice tonight, about time to start getting burgers ready without him.  I got half of my list done today, that is really not bad.  Tonight will be cross stitch or knitting with something on to watch or listen to.  I'm glad I got my walk in this morning -- sometimes we just have to put one foot in front of the other.